Poetry: Selections From D.R. James
This Day
This day
has its shape
as does
every day. It
arrived.
You saw yourself
its
backseat driver, the rider
useless or
helpless, rude flurry
of persons
floating the peripheries.
A blunt
arrow of a day
with you
glued to the shaft
a
misaligned feather, more
a bag of
drag than guidance.
No wonder
the unrelenting
headwind,
the heart’s pounding
that won’t
die down,
this
fatigue by dusk.
In the
museum of days lived,
where
consolations and regrets
echo off
scuffed tile, off
cloudy
glass, you fake it, fall
prey to
what carries you.
Mission
Statement
The middle
may make sense. It feels
like a
blind man has corralled me
with his
red-tipped cane. Bring it on,
he says,
tough-guy seer! I stall,
now on
beyond sixty years, fear nearing
a
religion, its tenets far too tenable.
Inside the
familiar pen, words cower,
denying
the shortest line between two points:
I may be
ravenous. I may be full.
The color
I call red may be green.
What sort
of jockeying employs such oblivion?
The shape
I call round may be bird.
The
shortest route between two stars,
my tongue,
hovering in the familiar canal.
What sort
of angel enjambs her eternity?
What sort
of storm front will open my sky?
What
landscape, what battle, what nudge, what hedge?
The song
of the predictable sun says set, go.
Crater
A lank
walker in a windbreaker
gripped
his iPod like a
hand
grenade, ear buds
tethering
the deadly balloon
of his
head as he sped
toward the
park, past me parceled
and
idling, peevish in my vehicle. He
boarded
his bus, whose folding doors
opened
slowly like a yawn hung
sideways,
which I was feeling
in my van,
in my gums, the FM
giddy and
bummed announcing
we’d only
finished half the job
in
Afghanistan—the half that
necessitated
the second half.
In those
same ten years
my two
middle-schoolers zoomed
from skate
shoes and attitudes through
two huge
universities, their growth charts
penciled
on the doorframe as if
to
bar-graph the body count,
and I
wondered, who exactly nurtured
all those
other pierceable sons
into the
maw and paw
of
roadside bombs? The red light
flicked to
green and I thank-you-ma’am’d
through
the mine field
of winter
salt and tax cuts, bounced
through a
big one, looked up just in time
to see the
walker in a window
beam and
take his seat, bend as if
to pray
and pull his pin.
United
Nations
The
tragedy of profit is sexy,
the campus
or supermarket a web
of
tentacles. We endeavor to breathe, yes,
protest
with an elbow here, fresh petals
or a nylon
rope there, but our inheritance
is a fake.
It might as well be a beggar
you
discover playing cello with a hairbrush,
each
movement mysterious but then again
predictable.
Yesterday, in the divide
between
our planet and our honeyed being
a chorus
of insolent windows reflected
six shades
of flags that only the valley
of the
shadow of laughter would engender.
The noise
came alive with the spirit of labor,
but it too
was just another gesture, another page
poised on
the cliffs of state. Better, practiced
scavenging.
Better, craning your zippered neck.
Better,
squeezing sunlight for a drink or burn.
He
Courted Their Judgments in His Prison
The mail
delivered them to his cell.
Censored,
he slit them and listened.
He dreamt
in columns, dressed right and left.
He cared
and cared not about the king:
crazy was
what crazy did. He was
of two
minds, both of clawed block.
The high
windows admitted—was it light?
Thus
waxing and waning became his rhythm.
Tuesdays
goulash, Wednesdays mac-and-cheese.
His own
warden, he was lenient, he was humane.
He awarded
gold stars, excursions to the mall.
He was
convinced of his own innocence.
He resided
in the confines of a cultivated guilt.
And it
wasn’t such a bad existence. His pay rate
reminded
him of his mother patting his head.
Dogs
howling nearby reminded him of his dog.
Nights,
denial made for a straight eight hours.
He wasn’t
above apology or the completion of chores.
By the
time something had to happen, something did.
He snored,
but who didn’t? He rolled over.
Sunset
Stripped
An orange
sun descends like a slow-mo yo-yo
toward
where this Great Lake’s turned purple.
I’d wanted
it to sing back-up to a love song
but as it
dripped from its last slip of cloud
like a
tear from a bloody lid I knew
meager
romance was doomed. Nature,
her
two-faced refrain—one moment
a hawk, of
all things, startles, wings
across
your wondrous path and the next
you’re
can-canning around the carcass
she was
deconstructing. And as wave after
unwavering
wave unwinds its white loop
of soothe
the grinding motion’s undermining
the stilts
you snooze on. Snide circle of life,
something
about the conservation of all energy
that
enervates the grand delusion. Just as well:
reality’s
better, if bitter. Buttering you up
with how no
two sunsets… just leaves you
greasy.
It’s data: the more molecules, the more
oranges,
yellows, and reds. Especially the reds—
their
longest wavelengths, their blossoms
like
gruesome wounds, their crimson dreams
aboard the
steady surf that sings me to sleep.
D. R.
James, retired
from nearly 40 years of teaching college writing, literature, and peace
studies, lives with his psychotherapist wife in the woods near Saugatuck,
Michigan. His latest of ten collections is Mobius Trip (Dos
Madres Press).
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