Poetry: Selections from Wioleta Deptula

It Comes in Waves

My hollow chest fills up with pain. An invisible fist grabs and squeezes and twists and squashes my sternum. It holds it tight; the grip is strong. It’s not loosening up. The numbing pain travels further. Up. Another invisible fist closes its palms on my throat, slowly but carefully not to choke me. I can breathe, I can speak but I have nothing to say. I’m trapped. I’m helpless. I’m weak. These fists are big and strong. They are not letting go. The grip is getting stronger, and I don’t know how to free myself. So, I just sit here with tears rolling down my cheeks waiting for this moment to be over.

Until next time.



Autonomous

Sitting alone in a dark room. Millions of thoughts come and go through the mind. Meaningless, most of them. Scenarios that will never become a reality. Conversations that will never take place. Looks that will never be exchanged. Touches that will never be felt. An imaginary world filled with nothingness. Perfect waste of time yet so enslaving. It’s the ability to create the perfect world, perfect outcomes for the problematic situations. It’s an escape from the mundane reality or a demanding reality. It’s a personal virtual reality except there is no need for goggles. It all happens in the mind, in the head. The body is resting, not asleep, just resting. There is no need or use for the body, the mind is all that is necessary. Eyes are closed yet watching the show the mind is playing. It’s a grand spectacle with a private viewing. Very intimate. Very personal. Tailored to the spectator. The show is thrilling, intriguing, captivating and provocative. There are no rules, none. And the show, it never ends. It keeps on going even if the eyes are no longer watching. The mind does it all, all by itself, all on its own.

It’s autonomous.



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I’ve not lived all the lives
that I could have, not killed
all the lives that I should have
murdered my dreams
suffocated my hopes
and now I have to live
with all these ghosts



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I write in solitude
it’s how I live too
I love in solitude
I haven’t met you
yet, tell me will I die
like this too



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Just thin skin thin ribs
sticking out, blue
thick veins and thinner
purple ones my body
defenseless and weak
that’s what I was given
to survive
                    in this world



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Underwater I close my eyes
I fall to sleep as I go down
the last air leaves my chest
as I land softly I rest

Underwater I open my eyes
my body lies on the bed of sand
I have pain in my sunken lungs

Underwater I choose
to stay I will not move
till I find my way





Wioleta Deptula is an illustrator and a poet based in London. She originally comes from Poland therefore she writes in both English and Polish. Her journey with poetry started in her early 30s when she decided to take private poetry classes. 

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