Poetry: Like Father/Like Mother/Like Daughter By Alinor Smith

Like Father/Like Mother/Like Daughter

 

Like Father 

Are you mad at me? I wonder, clutched around the throat by a man’s hand, dangling inches 

from the tile 

floor 

which 

by 

now 

will 

be 

cold. 

Deep in the 

grout lines 

dirt settles 

stains never leave 

& I am now

the disposable child. 

A late guardian angel speaks: “that’s enough.” or 

“it’s just his biology.” or 

“stand up.” 

what’s it like to breathe 

again? 

Like Mother 

(Shhh, 

we don’t speak of this.) 

Two grasped me that night, 

and all the other nights, 

guardian 

angel, 

because silence 

is another kind of hand. 

But, listen. 

shhh. 

we don’t speak of this. 

Like Daughter 

Before you—

I’ll save you the trouble: 

I know male lions eat the young 

that aren’t theirs 

so since she isn’t, 

I’ll make it quick,

clean: 

break her tiny body like twigs
underfoot peel ribbons of meat from
tendon like wet stray string on your hem
but where to put the long calico fur? it unspools in
clumps 
to catch in my throat 
and it twists 
like me 
for you, 
i will choke it down. 

look at my white shirt washed to a pale
bruised blue 
by the hot cycle. 
there, 
red blooms above my breast 
like it used to on my clawed hands,
emblazoned stripes 
in our perennial scar garden. 

how will i ever get it out?

 

 

 

 

 

Alinor Smith was mentored by Rita Dove during her undergraduate career at the University of Virginia, where she earned highest honors from the Batten School of Leadership and Public Policy. Her work received the 2025 Rachel St. Paul Poetry Award for Best Undergraduate Poetry Collection and has appeared in VMag and ad infinitum. Her work is inspired by Ada Limon, Eavan Boland, and, by and large, her own life. In addition to writing poetry, she teaches high school composition and works as a nanny and is based in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, where she lives with her cat, Stacy, and a man she loves. 

 

 

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